TITLE: Never Give up on a Miracle
AUTHOR: Boston
E-MAIL: bostonxphile@gmail.com
DISTRIBUTION: Archive freely, but please keep my name on 
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RATING: PG
CATEGORIES: VRA
KEYWORDS: Mulder/Scully romance. Post-episode. 
SPOILERS: Per Manum

SUMMARY: What happens in Per Manum after Mulder tells 
Scully to never give up on a miracle. The beginning of 
that "lonely night" Shadow Man talked about. 

DISCLAIMER: The X-Files belongs to FOX and 1013. I own 
nothing and make no money off of this. 



"Never give up on a Miracle." 

That was the last thing either of them said for the next 
few minutes.

They simply held each other in silence. 

Was it enough? Was everything they'd gone through worth 
giving up the chance of a child? She didn't know...she 
couldn't think about it. She couldn't think. All she felt 
was the pain. This was as close as they'd ever been in 
their six years together, but she still felt alone. As 
she said, it was her last chance...

"Mulder," Scully finally broke the silence. 

She pulled away from the hug and rested her forehead 
against his. She took a deep breath, and tried to control 
her breathing from turning into gasping. Mulder put both 
hands on her upper arms. The squeeze she felt was just 
enough to send a warm surge through her heart. He told 
her to calm down, breathe, and have faith all in one 
simple touch. But that was the beauty of their 
relationship. They had always been so much more than 
friends, but they had never crossed that line. Mulder and 
Scully would tell each other more in one glance than 
other partners spent their whole careers talking about. 
It was hard for other people to understand. But that 
didn't matter because the majority of their time was 
spent in the field, in a basement room of the Hoover 
building, or recovering at home from whatever various 
obstacles their current X-Files case had thrown at them. 
Not in the company of other people. Whatever life she had 
had before meeting the FBI's infamous fallen-from-grace 
profiler, Scully had quickly abandoned. 

Yet she was still in the same place before her mind had 
wandered off. Scared. Wondering. And lonely. 

"Yeah?" he whispered in reply. 

She leaned her head back from his forehead, and the two 
of them shared a knowing, sad gaze. So many things were 
unspoken in their relationship. And he knew that he was 
lucky because every other woman he had ever known would 
have demanded verbal communication. But it wasn't like 
that. These two didn't need that.

Scully tilted her head to the right. She continued to 
look at him, but it was not hard to see that she was 
holding back more tears. Except, unlike their hug in that 
hospital hallway years ago, she wasn't holding back that 
Scully grin he rarely saw. Mulder placed his right hand 
on her cheek. However, he did not push her to speak or 
even move. He knew she would take her time as she needed. 
As he moved his hand down so that his fingers rested on 
the nape of her neck, Scully stood up on her toes and 
place a kiss on his left cheek. A thank you, not only for 
what he had said to comfort her, but for everything else 
he had given her-strength, faith, belief, and a chance 
for the baby she had always wanted. 

Scully leaned back again and stared at her partner and 
best friend. As she contemplated their relationship, she 
realized just everything that they had actually been 
through. Sure, she knew. But this was her FBI partner. 
Her coworkers had partners, too, yet their duties 
certainly had never extended into becoming the father of 
their partner's child. She was lucky. This she knew. And 
it felt like everything hurt. Her body ached, but this 
wasn't due to the scary monsters or serial killers they 
chased. This was from the life she had chased, and 
lost...somewhere in the darkness. 

Scully would not give up her faith, though. However, she 
realized that this faith had more to do with the man in 
front of her, than the gold cross that hung from her 
neck. Scully had no idea that in a year, Mulder and her 
cross would leave her and that miracle in the time when 
she most needed her faith. But that wasn't now. And she 
would only need to handle what was in front of her right 
now. And Scully knew that she couldn't handle anything 
more than she was already dealing with. 

She loved Mulder. And she knew that Mulder loved her...but 
that love had grown into so much more. It was then that 
Scully replaced the kiss on Mulder's cheek with a kiss on 
his lips. 

"Scully."

But the look on her face was enough to let him know that 
this is what she wanted. That there was nowhere else to 
go. This is where their lives led them. Nothing else 
could happen. No one else could interfere. Destiny? She 
didn't dare think so, but maybe, looking at the man she 
loved, she could concede a little bit, realizing just how 
perfect they really were.